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After a year, I am finally going back to what I have forgotten about myself. Due to work, friendship and relationships, I overlooked about what I love to do, what makes me happy and who appreciates me. This includes my interest to read, watch dramas, HSJ, and of course my girlfriend. The year 2016 was really a huge struggle for me. I learned more about myself that I thought I didn't have in me. I became more confident about what I am doing with my work. I gained new friends and I lost a special person. The last part was the hardest. I struggled to maintain a work-life balance all in all.

I felt small, worthless and very anxious when the person that I love, didn't love me back. I expressed all efforts just so she would know. But as what you can expect with life, it is not that simple. No amount of effort can decide or change what a person is feeling towards you. I learned it the hard way. I cried, got depressed so much cause of it to the point that I became resentful towards all the people that surrounded me. I became heartbroken.

Not only that, I encountered a set back at work, and even got myself injured due to an accident. Just when I thought, it couldn't get any worse, it happened. During that time, I took a LOA from work so that I could heal. I struggled financially too because of it. From there, I realized that I don't need someone to make me happy as it starts within myself. I tried so hard to remember and go back to what made me happy before I encountered this hardship in my life. I tried to let go of things that I cannot change or control. Bit by bit, I focused more on being the best person I can be.

One of the biggest influence that helped me realize this is my girlfriend. Even though we had a tough and rough relationship during the past few months, she is there for me, she hung on when I was on the verge of giving up. My friends whom I have forgotten to notice as I was merely paying attention to only 1 person, surprisingly supported me. They made me feel that they really care for me by a simple visit at home, asking me how am I doing, and all those simple but relevant things. Lastly, HSJ. I started to check my LJ again and watch their performances, dramas and videos. Just by doing what they do best, they made me smile and forget all my problems. It made me really happy and I missed all of these.

Even though, I felt heartbroken for as long as I can remember, these helped me cope up with the hard situations that I have encountered and now I know that it is not so bad to get rejected from work and lose someone who doesn't feel the same way about you. I know that everyone has their priorities, that everything happens for a reason, all of it takes time and finally, I know that she is not one of them. I still get sad from time to time but it is not that depressing as before.

This is the first time that I actually wrote something about my personal life. Forgive me if someone is reading this nonsense. It just made me feel better doing so. To everyone that helped me, I really appreciate it. I will continue to have a positive mindset from now on no matter what hardship I face. It will be difficult but I will do my best. :)

[reposted post] Hey!Say!JUMP-"Weekender" FULL English Translation

Woot! Woot! NEW SONG~~♪
JUMP is trying to take away all of my money but that's ok! lol xD
jk, but no really, this song is cute and fun xD
I really like it!
I managed to translate the song after it aired tonight on Ongaku no Chikara♪
I will try to get Romaji on there eventually x) Romaji are up!
Open for corrections as always!

EXTRA:"Smart" translations: Candle/Reload/Yes!/Ready Go/FOREVER/Setsunasa Hikikae ni/Oh!Idol!/Hajimari no Melody/SuperSuperNight

Other Lyrics--> ►Tada Mae e◄ ►Ashita e no YELL
A never ending sparkling mystery!Collapse )

[reposted post] Popolo, August 2014 Hey!Say!JUMP Translation

Only translated one of the questions, but i will be adding the rest later :)
So many people were curious about the boy's fetishes so I'll post that now ;3
Enjoy *A*


[What’s the fetish only you’d understand?]

So...what's your fetish? ;)Collapse )

[reposted post] Myojo, August 2014 Yamada Ryosuke 1,000 Word Translation

I DID IT. Oh goodness that took forever lol I feel so accomplished. I'm just gonna stop translating for today lol
I hope you guys enjoy this as much as I did. Sure did bring up some emotions in me.
EXTRA: "S3art" translations: Candle/Reload/Yes!/Ready Go/FOREVER/Setsunasa Hikikae ni/Oh!Idol!/Hajimari no Melody
Will post rest soon^-^

"I love JUMP very much"Collapse )

happy bday inoo chan~

woah kei chan is already 24 yrs old, how quickly time flies XD
best wishes to you!


[reposted post] "S3art" Making-About "Candle" short photo Translation

Found this part interesting. I also found it nice that this is by far one of the longest JUMP single/album makings.

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made some profile pics for a friend :)

all you need to do is left click the image and it will lead you to a new window tab wherein you could save the image by right clickin it and save image as. after that you could upload it like any other profile pic in lj. :D


I have more if you want :) just let me know, hope you enjoy

Apr. 17th, 2014

my 4 ichibans